A lot of people who will potentially read this blog will be pretty familiar with who I am as a human being. I tend to be pretty open. But that’s not really reality. I am a very different person depending on the situation (something that I realize is pretty true for most of the people in the world). I think it has something to do with me moving around a lot as a kid. I’ve lived all over, and really never felt comfortable calling a place my hometown. So, I adapted. I changed… a lot. And because of that, I never truly felt comfortable in my own skin (until I went to therapy). So in a lot of ways I’m a chameleon. Green is my natural color, long tongue, et cetera. Anyway here’s an idea of who I am:

• I live in the American Gardens building on West 81st Street. On the 11th floor. My name is…
• Okay, so actually: I recently graduated with a degree in computer informat-zzzzzz…
• I have a job that I go to every weekday that pays well and gives me insurance so that’s cool!
• I am a cisgendered man. Using pronouns pertaining to the he, him, and his variety (but whatever, I really don’t care what you refer to me as).
• I like watching movies (check me out on letterboxd (https://letterboxd.com/win_jayden/)) and listening to music (check me out on last.fm (https://www.last.fm/user/win_jayden)).
• I enjoy writing because I have a lot of fucking thoughts running through my brain at any given moment and it frightens me.
• I wrote/directed a movie that will come out sometime in 2023 (I think).
• I am overweight and live in a consistent nightmare where I gain weight despite my best intentions.
• I am tragically single. In a way that would make weaker men turn into incels (not a good thing).
• I can play a character in social situations. One that can confidently navigate his way through the minutia of small talk with dumb jokes. But I am utterly terrible at following-up (see rule 4 of my first entry).
• I do sometimes wonder if I am on the spectrum (sexually and neurologically).
• I (used to) sometimes entertain the thought of living in a reality where I could properly address the regrets I (used to) live with.
• Favorite fruit: Honeycrisp apple.
• I feign smart, well-read, and sharp. But I am not (do not let me trick you!!)
• I make a lot of jokes, dumb ones. Ones that make people question whether I am actually joking or I’m just stupid and socially inept.
• I take inspiration from Donald Glover, my aunt, Tim Heidecker and Eric Wareheim, and for whatever reason, Moby.
• I indulge in some mischief from time to time. Engage in lies and misinformation. Look at lil ol’ me being a nuisance!
• I get really annoying when you let me go off.
• I made/make videos for an internet website called YouTube. Very sparingly! (https://www.youtube.com/user/JJwinsalot/)

You’ll probably get more from me as I continue to write in this blog. But as for now, I think that’s enough.