It’s been…

Okay so, I didn’t mean for it to get this far. But I kinda just got very busy and unmotivated. So, what are we going to do about this? Well, I am trying to stockpile posts and such in the drafts. But the biggest thing to me is to finally admit to myself that an every day blog is mighty unsustainable. So I am going to not do that. But I am keeping that pressure on myself to write. Writing is something that centers me and allows me to freely express myself. It is my artform. But I keep having this stupid fucking malformed idea that I need to make something of it. That I need to create value from it. There is no inherent value. I have only dropped the link for this blog once in the past month. And that was on a private twitter account with only 18 followers.

I am needing to understand how to be a better, more rounded individual. I need to figure it out. But I keep learning lessons that aren’t sticking for whatever reason. But I still am somewhat happy. That’s where I’m finding this… I guess inflection point. I am still lucid, having a blast, but there is a tinge of depression. I think I need to catch it now before it gets truly awful.

Anyway peepee poopoo!!!!!111!!!!11!!!