Feeling particularly like I’m trapped in an Office Space style life where I am constantly looking forward to the weekend. It’s been a vibe!!!!!!!!!! No but honestly, I feel like I’m just living to work right now. And it’s mostly because I don’t feel like I’m making an impact as of right now. This will change soon… I hope… Anyway…

I’m in my “working hard or hardly working” era. Feeling very Office Space lately. I am trying to work at my big boy job, but I cannot muster up the energy for whatever reason. Having a tough time staying awake, and having a tough time getting anything done. It is very bad! Anyway…

I am not entirely sure what to say… I’ve been having a tough time focusing at work over the past few days. Stemming mostly from me just being overwhelmed with training. I really want to get working on something with a task. But I don’t really know the products I am using… So I’m glad I get to make the mistakes now. I just don’t want to fall into a pattern where I become absurdly lazy. It’s where I think my body wants to be, but my mind hates it.

I’ve had trouble with motivation my entire life. Trying to motivate myself to do anything is a tough ask, I’ll tell you what. But I’ve tried to push past it. I’ve succeeded a bit. But it’s tough when it becomes that time of the year where I get laziest. I just need to refocus. Get myself back on the horse. Hopefully, I can do it!

I’m not going to lie, this week of work has been a load of shit. Not because it’s been hard, but because I’ve been having a tough time mustering up the motivation to do anything at all. I need to get myself back on track to be honest. I think it’s just been a hard week. I need time to reset. This weekend I will be focusing on just getting myself centered again. Hopefully that will do the trick!!